Can you believe it? After January feeling like it was never going to end, suddenly it’s the 1st March and February has been and gone. It really felt like a blink-and-you’ll-miss-it kind of month.
I’m feeling pretty smug with myself, writing a blog post on time for perhaps the first time ever – could this be a sign that I’ve finally got my shizz together? I’m not going to hold my breath, but 2020 is already proving to be the year I wanted it to be. I’m focussing so much more on self-care, expanding my horizons, removing toxic elements and just living a good life. My vibes are high and it’s made such a huge difference that I can’t wait to see where I’ll be at come the end of the year.
One of the goals I set myself for this year was to take some online courses as I really want to learn again and to use my brain for something other than my day job, and I’ve done just that! I have 5 courses lined up (4 online via The Centre of Excellence and 1 in-person day course in May) and I’m really excited to get stuck in. I even went on Amazon and bought myself some old style exercise books like the ones I used when I was at school! I’m hankering after a fountain pen as well; they were so much fun to write with – the nostalgia is real!
Aside from using my brain more, a big part of my self care has been about taking time for myself – listening to podcasts (Casefile for anyone interested), reading more (see my bookish updates here), having a nightly skincare routine, clearing out unwanted/unneeded things that are cluttering up our house, spending time with good friends, looking at the sky more, and avoiding things that make me angry, sad or that I know will whizz round and round in my brain making me anxious. I already feel so different as a result of this and, to be quite honest, I’m wondering why I didn’t start prioritising my own wellbeing before. I seem to have a lot more energy as a result as well, which I didn’t expect.
The middle of February marked 5 years since Ben and I got together. It sounds like such a long time, 5 years, and I feel like the time has both flown by and that it feels like he’s always been around. I still feel incredibly lucky to have found someone that I can be totally at ease with, can act like a goofball with, who will listen to me when I rant, and will always be just behind me when I need back-up. I stood in the kitchen yesterday and had one of those sudden moments of clarity where you become super aware of your existence (anyone else get that??) and my heart swelled with just how lucky I am to have the life I do. It’s not perfect – whose is – but it’s a really good life and I am so grateful for every single day.
Another big moment in February was my annual check to look for any recurrences of Cancer, and I got the all clear again! The best news! It’s a funny thing once you’ve had Cancer, not a day goes by it doesn’t pop into your mind and you always have this slight anxiety and mistrust of your body, and a hyper vigilance to make sure it doesn’t catch you out again. BUT, I’m all clear and don’t have to be checked for another year, so I’m over the moon about that. (Reminder: If you’ve got any concerns about any part of your body, go and see your GP – it’s always better to get checked out than to leave it).
Last weekend we had a couple of gardening companies come round to give us a quote for a complete overhaul of our garden. Although I love the garden itself in terms of size, shape and light, we do have issues with drainage as we are slightly lower than the surrounding gardens and so all the water seems to flow in our direction, then with nowhere to go our grass becomes a boggy pond. So, we’re looking at having the garden level raised slightly, some paved areas added and some walled planting areas. We haven’t had the prices back yet but I’m assuming it’s not going to be cheap – time to start looking through the cupboards to see what we can stick on eBay for sale to scrape in some additional pennies! I’m not sure we’ll be able to get it done this year, but it would be nice if we could – I want to spend as much time as possible outdoors this summer as it’s so good for my soul.
Following on from that I definitely want to do a bit more exploring of Essex now the spring is arriving with us. I want to wander through forests, look in the windows of shops in cute little villages, listen to the gentle running of streams, and stare out across the sea at the horizon. It’s so much better than being cooped up inside; fresh air and time to clear my mind!
So, now it’s here what does March have in store? Well, it’s starting off with me spending a weekend with one of my absolute favourite people in the world – Grace. We’re going to drink coffee, eat good food, visit one of the shops she works in that I’m desperate to explore, wander along beaches, and put the world to rights while we drink whisky in cute pubs. I cannot wait to see her!
Aside from that I have a few other mate dates scheduled, will hopefully complete my first course of the year, want to start learning Greek, am beginning talks with a tattooist about my next piece, and will be starting a programme which will hopefully stop me biting my nails – I’m nearly 35 years old and I just can’t seem to kick the habit (I’ve even tried hypnotherapy) so I’m hoping this will be just the thing I need to finally stop!
So that was February and I’m excited for this new month. I’m also pretty excited about the little buzz I’ve got back for blogging. For a long time I felt like I was a square peg trying to fit into a round hole as the “industry” has moved on so far and so quickly since I was last regularly part of it, but I’ve decided to let go of the self doubt and just do my own thing. Comparing ourselves to others is one of the most detrimental things we can do to ourselves, so that’s one thing I’m trying to knock on the head this year. I’m going to just do my own thing and that’s good enough for me.
(One thing I will add here quickly is that I got the amazing opportunity to partner with a brand that I use on a daily basis this month – Whiskas! I’m always amazed when anyone wants to work with me, and I am so grateful every time this happens! Click the link to take a look at it – it’s all about the little quirks that make my cats so unique).
Happy March everyone – I hope it brings you all the good things!