Well, hello there, hi, howdy! I’m back!
I’ll be honest, when I wrote my last post saying I was going to be taking a break from blogging to focus on my offline life for a little while, I wasn’t 100% sure if I would be back. In fact, I was definitely leaning more towards the never-coming-back side of things. But, the time away has done me the world of good and I’m so excited to pick up this little hobby of mine again!
2019 has, so far, been a year of eye-opening, soul-awakening, mind-grounding growth for me and I find myself now in a place that feels preeeeetty bloody good, truth being told! I feel like having 3 months shut off from the world (whilst I recovered from my surgery) then 3 months shut off (mostly) from the online world has allowed me to really get to know myself and the person I’ve become in a much deeper way, and I feel like that is the best possible place for me to be in when it comes to returning to blogging. I’ve mentioned before that I found the pressure to do more and be more and achieve more in this not-so-little industry a little jarring on my nerves and sense of wellbeing, but now I feel I’ve finally got to a place where I can shut out all of the noise associated with being a #girlboss and just blog for the enjoyment of it like I used to, rather than feeling like I’m failing by not being one of the big guns. Hobbies are meant to be fun and if your hobby starts to get your down then it’s time to take a break from it and re-evaluate, which is exactly what I did and now I feel raring to go and happy to sit in my little space in the blogging world, quickly ticking along and doing my own thing.
So what have I been doing since I was last here? Well, now I’m back let’s have a little catch-up…
First off, regular visitors might have noticed that there’s a whole new look around here. I decided a fresh start needed to be a fresh start and so a makeover was in order. I didn’t want anything too flashy and fancy because, let’s be honest, I’m not a flashy and fancy kinda gal, but I wanted it to look fresh, clean and modern, and I think (hope!) I’ve achieved it with this layout!
We also – as you may already know – moved house. In fact, we BOUGHT a house. I know! What!! I honestly didn’t think we would ever been able to buy our own place – or not for a good few years yet – but we were incredibly lucky, the stars aligned and now here we are living in our very own, brand new little house. And, honestly, I’m over the moon with it!
The actual process of buying was very stressful and we had a total nightmare when after 6 weeks of saying everything was hunky dory and having us pay out for a valuation, searches and solicitors time, our mortgage lender pulled out without any real explanation or reason as to why. In fact they didn’t tell us, we only found out when I called them to ask for an update as we were just 5 days away from the deadline we had to exchange contracts. You can imagine how impressed I was with that! Anyway, luckily we found a new lender who rushed us through and our builders were really sympathetic and let us breach the deadline, so all in all it worked out, but I found the whole thing really draining and spent the entire time completely anxious that something else was going to go wrong. I couldn’t get excited or even allow myself to believe it was going to happen as I was so terrified it was all going to fall apart. But, it all turned out great in the end and my worrying and stressing was all for nothing.
The house itself is amazing and there isn’t a single thing in the entire house that I don’t like or would change. I’m literally in love with every single brick tile and blade of grass and sometimes I’ll just be walking up the stairs or wandering into the kitchen to make a cup of tea and I’ll get this buzz of electricity run from my head to my toes as my brain whispers: “This is yours”. I still can’t quite believe it.
After moving we took 2 weeks off of work to settle in, unpack and make sure the dog was fully comfortable as, because of her brain damage, she can find life a little overwhelming sometimes and we thought that moving house onto a working building site might stress her out. How wrong we were! It’s like she’s had a lobotomy – she’s a totally different dog! In fact, we’ve even been able to take her out for a walk a few times without her having a meltdown which was completely unheard of before!
I don’t quite know what has happened to make her change in this way but I’m embracing it with open arms – it fills me with such joy to see her wandering round the garden completely at peace rather than simply running out, going to the toilet and scampering back in because she’s scared. I just hope it continues and that we can eventually open up her world a little more.
Although most of our time has been spent at home we did have a little 2-night break away a couple of weeks ago when we went to spend a night ghost hunting in Shepton Mallet prison! We booked it last year and had been really looking forward to it as it’s got a bit of a reputation for being pretty spiritually active! This is the third ghost hunt I’ve been on and they’re always good fun, but this one was a little different as it was an all-nighter, running from 9pm until 6.30am. The opportunity to spend an entire night walking around a prison with nothing but the light from our torches was really incredible – I think I’ll do a dedicated post all about it soon as quite a few people have asked me to tell them more about it!
Whilst we were away we spent a couple of hours wandering around Wells City and it is absolutely stunning! Neither of us wanted to leave and it’s really given us the itch to get out there and explore the UK more, so next year we’re planning a week away to soak up some of the beautiful countryside and history this country has to offer.
I’ve also been focussing on trying to live a more eco-friendly life and have been slowly implementing changes that lessen my impact on the planet, plus I’ve been making more time for self-care. It’s all baby steps, but I think it’s important to work towards living a more conscious, mindful life and to practice gratitude on a daily basis. I’ve begun keeping a bullet journal style diary, am spending less time on my phone, am listening to music and reading more, overhauling the products I use both in and on my body, and I can honestly say I feel so much better. I’m definitely turning into a bit of a hippy as I get older but that’s not bad thing and we’ve all got to be true to ourselves, right?
Other than that, honestly, the last 3 months have been fairly uneventful. It’s been work work work during the week and weekends have been centred around house bits and pieces and spending time with friends and family. No adventures on the horizon as such, just lots of spending time indoors and trying to save money! The past few months have been so expensive, so we are tightening our belts and trying to save the pennies where we can.
Anyway, I think that’s all for now, but I’m back and I’m so happy about it!