I don’t really know why I’m doing this but, for some reason, I am. I’m attempting Blogtober.
For those of you that don’t know what Blogtober is, it’s basically a little challenge in the blogging world where people set themselves the task to post every single day for the month of October. Now, that might not sound like anything major, but for anyone who blogs or knows someone who does, you’ll know that there’s a helluva lotta work involved in getting a post online. Add to that the need to think of 31 days worth of content and you’ve got yourself a real test and something that I’ve failed on when I’ve attempted it in the past.
So, why now?
Well, me being me, I share everything on this blog – the highs, the lows and everything in between – and it’s no secret that 2017 has been a rubbish year for me. I’ve really noticed a change in myself and I’ve struggled with things this year – I’m a lot more anxious, I’m less interested in going out and doing things, I’m more insular and locked-down, and generally I have a lot less confidence in so many aspects of my life. I’m stuck so far into this rut and currently I’m pushing myself really hard to drag myself out of it, so setting a challenge like this seemed like a good thing to do. I’ve always found solace in writing, so I think this could well be good for me. That said, I’m not going to beat myself up if I miss a day for whatever reason – this is meant to be a good thing, not a stick to beat myself with!
Aside from the emotional side of things and on a much more practical level, I’m hoping that this will act as a nice shake-up for my braincells.
Back in my blogging heyday, before I fell off the wagon, I used to be able to knock out blog posts at the drop of a hat. My brain was running on what felt like a different frequency to now; full of ideas and able to to find inspiration in the smallest details of the most ordinary day. Fast forward to now and I struggle massively with writer’s block. I know this is likely due to being a bit out of practice – your brain is like any tool in your garden shed; if you don’t use it, it’s going to get rusty and stiff, making it difficult to use in the future – so I’m hopeful that by training my brain over the next 30 days to snap back into it’s blogging mode, I might just find my mojo again.
As I write this now I’m sat under a blanket on my sofa, animals sleeping either side of me, a cup of tea just within arms reach, and a notepad with a list of blog post ideas. I’m hopeful I’ll be able to stick to the plan and complete this 31 day challenge and I’m intrigued to see how I feel at the end of it and whether it really has been self-medicinal and creativity-feeding as I hope it will be.